Messy.

My ideas are a mess
Thoughts I can’t tell where it belongs
I want to think clearly and focus on things
But suddenly I had the flashbacks
Dreams that’s merely impossible
Here I am just living in the present
An empty shell
With a cracked soul.

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Teardrops.

Tears
We haven’t met for months
Then one second I think you’ll be with me now
I smile mostly there every moment I forget you
Whenever I frown there you are in the sidelines waiting to fall
I’m afraid to show you off
But could you please be here now
Unleash all the sadness in me
The hurt I’ve hid all these time
And make it all a little better.

Indenial Love.

I feel the chills
Shiver in my bones
The way I’m feeling
I can’t explain
Just a touch of your skin
It keeps me up
Until it makes me think
And lose it inside
Your eyes on me
A blank stare
But the way I look
Hidden beneath are
Million words
That I all zip up
So it can’t get out
Admitting is dangerous
‘Cause things are wrong
Better deny
Than destroy it all.

Take your life?

‘Die, girl’
Your mind whispers
A lot of options to choose

The pills
Sleeping or any kind they are
Be overdosed

The rope
Just hold and tighten it up
A necklace around your neck

The knife
Its metal sharp edges
Piercing through your skin

Jump through the bridge
A tall building
Or be hit on the road

My mind, it asked me
‘Which one do you like?’
‘Be it fast’, I said
I hate the pain
Let it end.

Her Suffering.

A girl standing
With plastered smile on her face
Eyes bloodshot
Flesh and bones decaying inside
Still she managed to walk and talk
Like everybody does
Her body and mind a great mystery
Just one hit
And she could die.