We haven’t met for months
Then one second I think you’ll be with me now
I smile mostly there every moment I forget you
Whenever I frown there you are in the sidelines waiting to fall
I’m afraid to show you off
But could you please be here now
Unleash all the sadness in me
The hurt I’ve hid all these time
And make it all a little better.


Indenial Love.

I feel the chills
Shiver in my bones
The way I’m feeling
I can’t explain
Just a touch of your skin
It keeps me up
Until it makes me think
And lose it inside
Your eyes on me
A blank stare
But the way I look
Hidden beneath are
Million words
That I all zip up
So it can’t get out
Admitting is dangerous
‘Cause things are wrong
Better deny
Than destroy it all.

Take your life?

‘Die, girl’
Your mind whispers
A lot of options to choose

The pills
Sleeping or any kind they are
Be overdosed

The rope
Just hold and tighten it up
A necklace around your neck

The knife
Its metal sharp edges
Piercing through your skin

Jump through the bridge
A tall building
Or be hit on the road

My mind, it asked me
‘Which one do you like?’
‘Be it fast’, I said
I hate the pain
Let it end.

Her Suffering.

A girl standing
With plastered smile on her face
Eyes bloodshot
Flesh and bones decaying inside
Still she managed to walk and talk
Like everybody does
Her body and mind a great mystery
Just one hit
And she could die.

Hidden Her.

A dark cloud surrounding her
She’s filled of secrets
She can’t even tell anyone
People might get away
Or call her insane
But she’s still normal
Feeling the emotions
So better at faking it
Can you tell you knew her well
When you don’t even understand the story of her scars?


I hate the dark thoughts. They came again. They came all over again all at once. They’re consuming me and I can’t breathe. I’m suffocated. My head’s spinning. I wanna be alone, enclosed in a dark chamber. I feel like going crazy. Or maybe really crazy as they say or my father says. I’ve been piling it all up again inside me, the fears, the guilt, the madness. I’ve been staying quiet again for too long. I felt out of reach.


I blink
And open my eyes
I think
And there you are
I can’t help but try to find you
In every human being on earth
I touched
I’m with
But still I can’t find your pieces
That would patch me back together.